I'm gonna leave my home, my 2nd home and my country soon..I'm gonna leave to somewhere new and foreign to me. I'm gonna be living all by myself, becoming independent for real now. I'm gonna start a new life altogther soon..and it's a new beginning of a new future.
This is gonna sound similar..I'm gonna miss my homes, but no so much for my country =P. My home is where my parents are, and nothing beats the warmth of the family. Our family is the closest to us and they are always there when you need them. A family is supposed to be filled with love and care, just like what God intended for us. I know I'm gonna miss them a lot, but there's something that needs to be done to carry the burden of the family together with my parents as a responsible daughter. And I believe experience is very important for a person, especially people like me who hasn't much experience of the outside world. Being protected and kept in the house doesn't really helps, seriously.
It caused me to be immature, and not aware of the dangers of the outside world. Some times we'd just have to gain experience from the outside world to grow up n wiser. There, I know I will learn a lot, and I will grow more. By God's grace I'll be a better person.
My song, "Unforgettable" is complete. I'm crossing my fingers and hoping the song would be arranged and produced so that it would be included in Simon's album, and be aired on radio. I'm not gonna stop here. Music is my passion and life. I'm gonna do more good music, and I will never stop singing.
I'm gonna miss my friends, especially my partners who are also my closest friends. Nothing beats the joy of sharing the same passion together. They do what I do, they love what I love. They care for me and help me when I need them, and I really thank God for them.
It's gonna be a whole new world out there. And I'm gonna face it all on my own. God will be there for me I know. I must be strong. I must not be easily teared down but shine for the Lord in whatever I do. I will draw closer to God each and everyday so that I will not loose track of Him. Here I am, humbled before You, take me, and lead me to wherever You want me to go and do, Oh Lord. I wanna live my life doing what God wants me to do, fulfilling His purpose in me.
Dear Lord, I pray for the people in Singapore, that they will not be racist but be filled with love and care. I pray that they will not cause any trouble and will be filled with Your grace, and everything there will be smooth flowing. Lord, please send Your angels there to guide me and take care of me. May I shine for You there by Your sufficient grace, for all things work together for the good. Dear Lord, please teach me to be humble and forgiving, but wise enough to protect myself from dangers and temptations. Thank You for Your wonderful Love that never fails me everyday, eventhough I failed you. You never leave me but always be there to remind me that You are there for me.
Amen.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Friday, May 23, 2008
Day....My New Love~
I thought I’d only fall in love with one, and the only one. Afterall, I’ve been in love for all these years. But now, never could I imagine I could fall for another one. I started to find the existing love beginning to fade away, and it started to get a little boring. I knew my love has changed. So long to the old one. I’m gonna start loving you from now onwards and forget about the past, my new love, my White Tuna Sashimi~ =D.
It all started when I stepped into this new Japanese restaurant in the ever famous Pulau Tikus (where all the Jap food places are) in Penang. At first look, it seemed to be just another Jap restaurant with my expectations being moderate on it. It doesn’t look like any good and classy restaurants around, but since it’s a new place (and being a loyal Jap food fan), I’d just thought I’d give it a try.
We started off with the menu on the table, and picked a few dishes out of the (I would consider) wide variety of selections. My friend suggested we pick the sashimi coz it’s supposed to be good. Of coz I agreed on that one, and we each took another noodle to go with. The first to be served was the sashimi. We had a good stare at it, and the both of us didn’t waste any time to sink our teeth into those raw, delicious meat. Always being my favourite, the Salmon sashimi, we started off with that unbelievable thick, juicy piece of raw fish and that experience was totally, superb/ mesmerizing/ magical, you name it!
Then came down to the rest of the other types. There were the Mackerel, Octopus, and Tuna, all equally unbelievably thick and juicy pieces. As we were happily enjoying those pieces, I noticed a very rare kind of sashimi at the side of the plate, yet to be touched. As it was white in colour, I started to suspect those pieces were what they called the Butter Fish. Curious, I picked up a piece and sunk my teeth into it. My oh my, to my surprise, the taste was UNBELIEVABLE! The texture was so soft and tender as it’s quite an oily piece, quite rare as oily pieces can only be found at the belly portion of the fish. Immediately, and just about immediately, I fell in love with it; (and I was wrong, it’s actually) the White Tuna Sashimi!
I really do not know how to further describe that unbelievable, irresistible taste of the White Tuna Sashimi. I only know that it has captured my heart for another time again over all the years being so loyal to the Salmon sashimi. You gotta try it to believe it! I know I shouldn’t be loving it so much, coz it means the White Tuna will be facing a slimmer chance of survival as the demand for the meat got higher by now.
Well, I think I’ll just meet you up once in a while, and not too often…but I’ll definitely be missing you, my new love~
-How We First Met-
It all started when I stepped into this new Japanese restaurant in the ever famous Pulau Tikus (where all the Jap food places are) in Penang. At first look, it seemed to be just another Jap restaurant with my expectations being moderate on it. It doesn’t look like any good and classy restaurants around, but since it’s a new place (and being a loyal Jap food fan), I’d just thought I’d give it a try.
We started off with the menu on the table, and picked a few dishes out of the (I would consider) wide variety of selections. My friend suggested we pick the sashimi coz it’s supposed to be good. Of coz I agreed on that one, and we each took another noodle to go with. The first to be served was the sashimi. We had a good stare at it, and the both of us didn’t waste any time to sink our teeth into those raw, delicious meat. Always being my favourite, the Salmon sashimi, we started off with that unbelievable thick, juicy piece of raw fish and that experience was totally, superb/ mesmerizing/ magical, you name it!
Then came down to the rest of the other types. There were the Mackerel, Octopus, and Tuna, all equally unbelievably thick and juicy pieces. As we were happily enjoying those pieces, I noticed a very rare kind of sashimi at the side of the plate, yet to be touched. As it was white in colour, I started to suspect those pieces were what they called the Butter Fish. Curious, I picked up a piece and sunk my teeth into it. My oh my, to my surprise, the taste was UNBELIEVABLE! The texture was so soft and tender as it’s quite an oily piece, quite rare as oily pieces can only be found at the belly portion of the fish. Immediately, and just about immediately, I fell in love with it; (and I was wrong, it’s actually) the White Tuna Sashimi!
It was so irresistible that after our meal, we even ordered another plate of White Tuna Sashimi all by itself!
I really do not know how to further describe that unbelievable, irresistible taste of the White Tuna Sashimi. I only know that it has captured my heart for another time again over all the years being so loyal to the Salmon sashimi. You gotta try it to believe it! I know I shouldn’t be loving it so much, coz it means the White Tuna will be facing a slimmer chance of survival as the demand for the meat got higher by now.
Well, I think I’ll just meet you up once in a while, and not too often…but I’ll definitely be missing you, my new love~
Wonderful, it's a love at first bite~
Day...Together Forever
It’s been some time since the last entry. As much as I wanted to get it updated, I was kinda restricted from it coz there was no chance for me to go online. Thus, the wide time gap in between the last and the latest entries.
May 17 marks a special day for this couple.....
I was back in Penang to attend a lovely couple’s wedding; Sharon and Kevin. I’ve known them ever since they were newly going out with each other, around 2 years ago. Sharon is always a sweet girl, who was quite anxious of this relationship and loves Kevin a lot. She’s always enthusiastic about the both of themselves. At the isle, both Kevin and Sharon pledged their loves to each other for life before the Lord, and what’s best is, they found out they not only want to live together, but can’t even live without each other. I’m sure they had not only touched my heart, but the hearts of all the other witnesses on that day as well. I’m really happy for the both of them, and I pray for God’s blessings to be with them.
I was back in Penang to attend a lovely couple’s wedding; Sharon and Kevin. I’ve known them ever since they were newly going out with each other, around 2 years ago. Sharon is always a sweet girl, who was quite anxious of this relationship and loves Kevin a lot. She’s always enthusiastic about the both of themselves. At the isle, both Kevin and Sharon pledged their loves to each other for life before the Lord, and what’s best is, they found out they not only want to live together, but can’t even live without each other. I’m sure they had not only touched my heart, but the hearts of all the other witnesses on that day as well. I’m really happy for the both of them, and I pray for God’s blessings to be with them.
Coming and being together for life seemed so easy for them although I too understand that they have gone through many obstacles and challenges during those 2 years being together. It was only 2 years, and they could tie the knots and being so assured for life that this is the life partner they want to be with. Well, I guess it tells us that God works in miraculous ways, and He definitely has a plan for our lives. It was a great and special moment for them at that point of time. They are such a beautiful couple =).
Hmmm..well now if you ask me, I’m not too anxious for mine at the moment. After all, God has His plan for us, and every thing has its own timing. It’s all up to Him to make things and break things, so I’m letting Him to take over the steering wheel. I’m just gonna cross my fingers, trust God, and move on.
I’ve been back to Penang for almost a week now. This time back here is a time of catching up with lotsa buddies and friends. Hey, honestly I didn’t know I’ve got so many friends to catch up with, and I wonder if I have enough time to catch up with all of them in this short period of time. Boy, I can’t wait to start a whole new life altogether soon....
Monday, May 12, 2008
Day 42 without Dan- Sat & Sun, Catching Up & Looking Forward…
As usual.. Always can’t get enough sleep for some reason.. I gotta do something to the bed!!!
Saturday and Sunday was a time of catching up with lotsa good’ol and new friends…We went to visit Mike at the motorcross competition at Lembah Tempurung on Saturday. I almost forgotten about it until he reminded me the night before. Luckily we managed to get there on time the next day, and both Willy and Charleston had a fun time watching those motor crossers trained and pulling off their stunts. I managed to catch up with Mike; ahh, he’s still as playful as ever, young and energetic. Being a professional motor cross racer, he and his bro, James weren’t allowed to participate (coz they’re too good already, haha). Well, it’s a good thing they are able to have their passion as a career =). (Besides this, Gua Tempurung is a nice place!)
It was a long day, coz after that I met up with another friend in town. She needed company coz she kinda went through the same thing as I did. I know how it is to be alone at this kind of time, and I don’t think I want the same thing to happen to her too. I had to bring her home later on and of all times, I lost my way. I was almost on the way to Penang after dropping her back! In the end, I was late for the late night show….=S.
Sunday was Mother’s day. We actually planned to watch the motor cross today too, but since it was Mother’s day, we thought we should spend some time with Mom and Dad to have lunch. Church service was in the evening, and I managed to catch up with Pastor’s daughters, Sherine and Melissa. Both of them were and are flying and the both of them were my schoolmates! Haha. As Pastor’s daughters, I’m sure they had enough advice from their parents about flying, and both of them had their fair share of experience in the airlines. They both gave me a lot of heads up, advice and a challenge to stay pure and right in God’s presence, and most importantly to have a good relationship with God. Sherine was in SIA for some time till she got the calling and went for Bible school for 1 year. She’s now doing good serving back in Ipoh in our church. Thank God for guiding me through this path, and giving me a lot of guidance from so many different people sharing the same career that loves God.
It seems modeling is a kinda trend recently, and surprisingly even in Ipoh. I kinda met another old friend in this church and he’s into modeling as a career doing for Asian countries. Gee, that oughta be good, coz this is the best offer I ever heard of from so many others. He meets their conditions with the looks and everything. Well, actually to talk about it, the history of our friendship was quite a funny one too, haha. But then, gosh… he is still as shy as ever.. Sweet =). Later on, I managed to catch up with his bro too before heading home.
I guess I’m gonna be missing these guys soon as I get to SG. I didn’t realise that I’ve actually a long list of friends I almost forgotten about. It’s gonna be a whole new life in SG, and a bunch of whole new friends I’m gonna meet with soon. I know the culture there would be different and everything else would be different, but I’m just gonna stick to my goal, look to God and do my thing before I move on to the next stage in life. Those were something for me to get my mind off the depression and sadness for a while. Despite that, I would still have those thoughts back every night I sleep, but I am slowly trying to recover from the hurt and depression.. I’m really looking forward to the new days, so that there’s something new in my life, and I shall forget about everything of the past, and have a new life once and for all.
Saturday and Sunday was a time of catching up with lotsa good’ol and new friends…We went to visit Mike at the motorcross competition at Lembah Tempurung on Saturday. I almost forgotten about it until he reminded me the night before. Luckily we managed to get there on time the next day, and both Willy and Charleston had a fun time watching those motor crossers trained and pulling off their stunts. I managed to catch up with Mike; ahh, he’s still as playful as ever, young and energetic. Being a professional motor cross racer, he and his bro, James weren’t allowed to participate (coz they’re too good already, haha). Well, it’s a good thing they are able to have their passion as a career =). (Besides this, Gua Tempurung is a nice place!)
It was a long day, coz after that I met up with another friend in town. She needed company coz she kinda went through the same thing as I did. I know how it is to be alone at this kind of time, and I don’t think I want the same thing to happen to her too. I had to bring her home later on and of all times, I lost my way. I was almost on the way to Penang after dropping her back! In the end, I was late for the late night show….=S.
Sunday was Mother’s day. We actually planned to watch the motor cross today too, but since it was Mother’s day, we thought we should spend some time with Mom and Dad to have lunch. Church service was in the evening, and I managed to catch up with Pastor’s daughters, Sherine and Melissa. Both of them were and are flying and the both of them were my schoolmates! Haha. As Pastor’s daughters, I’m sure they had enough advice from their parents about flying, and both of them had their fair share of experience in the airlines. They both gave me a lot of heads up, advice and a challenge to stay pure and right in God’s presence, and most importantly to have a good relationship with God. Sherine was in SIA for some time till she got the calling and went for Bible school for 1 year. She’s now doing good serving back in Ipoh in our church. Thank God for guiding me through this path, and giving me a lot of guidance from so many different people sharing the same career that loves God.
It seems modeling is a kinda trend recently, and surprisingly even in Ipoh. I kinda met another old friend in this church and he’s into modeling as a career doing for Asian countries. Gee, that oughta be good, coz this is the best offer I ever heard of from so many others. He meets their conditions with the looks and everything. Well, actually to talk about it, the history of our friendship was quite a funny one too, haha. But then, gosh… he is still as shy as ever.. Sweet =). Later on, I managed to catch up with his bro too before heading home.
I guess I’m gonna be missing these guys soon as I get to SG. I didn’t realise that I’ve actually a long list of friends I almost forgotten about. It’s gonna be a whole new life in SG, and a bunch of whole new friends I’m gonna meet with soon. I know the culture there would be different and everything else would be different, but I’m just gonna stick to my goal, look to God and do my thing before I move on to the next stage in life. Those were something for me to get my mind off the depression and sadness for a while. Despite that, I would still have those thoughts back every night I sleep, but I am slowly trying to recover from the hurt and depression.. I’m really looking forward to the new days, so that there’s something new in my life, and I shall forget about everything of the past, and have a new life once and for all.
Friday, May 9, 2008
Day 39 without Dan- Thanks for the Hurt
That I may grow to be stronger, tougher and wiser. I admit I was childish. I was innocent and naive. I was too straight forward to think that things happen the way they seem and look to be. I might still have the same traits, but from this moment on, it has changed my perspective towards this and many other aspects in life.
I will not be so emotional anymore. I must stand up again. It’s not the end of the world and I don’t have to give up my life for this. I cannot be hurt anymore ever again. Love is not eternal except God’s. Never treat love as something eternal besides God’s. Humans will fail themselves and love in this matter is NOT calculative and unfair. It’s not necessary that if a person has more love to give and contributes more to love, he/she will be having the equal love from their partner. I wonder how many more hurts to go before true happiness comes.
Thanks for the hurt, because it has open my eyes to see how wonderful love can be, and how cruel it can be when love is gone. The only person that could hurt us the most is the person that we love the most. The hurt could grow 10 folds if that person is a merciless one, a bad one who doesn’t even care for how we feel. The anger and hate will grow even more and it’s even harder to get things over. Being cruel and hard doesn’t help. They only make things worst. I hope it will not happen, and I will not be hurt more especially being in this vulnerable state again at this very moment. Caring and being considerate helps so much more in fact.
For countless times I’ve said I gotta let go. For countless times I’ve tried, and it was so hard to do so. Once again, my emotions failed me. Once again, I was smashed to the wall. At last, I now realise that I have to be strong, and not to give in to emotions so easily. I cannot fail myself again. The sky may seemed to have fallen on me once again, but I must get out of this and find for another sky and another world. May I see the light again and a rainbow that will remind me this will not happen again.
I shall have a new life soon. I shall see things differently then. I will have more things to look forward to than to stay in the same state and mourning on the same tragedy. Everyone has to move on and find a better life, or else we’ll be trapped in depression and will never be able to come out of our own world. Why mourn of the past where we have better things to look forward to? God is there to give us hope, no matter how much we think He’ve failed us at the present moment.
Time to time I’ll be missing the days of happiness and sweetness. From time to time I’ll be hurt by how it ended…is it worth for me to still recall all these memories? Is it worth for me to ponder on them? Will they bring me anywhere? Well, at the looks of it, I don’t think so.
I will not be so emotional anymore. I must stand up again. It’s not the end of the world and I don’t have to give up my life for this. I cannot be hurt anymore ever again. Love is not eternal except God’s. Never treat love as something eternal besides God’s. Humans will fail themselves and love in this matter is NOT calculative and unfair. It’s not necessary that if a person has more love to give and contributes more to love, he/she will be having the equal love from their partner. I wonder how many more hurts to go before true happiness comes.
Thanks for the hurt, because it has open my eyes to see how wonderful love can be, and how cruel it can be when love is gone. The only person that could hurt us the most is the person that we love the most. The hurt could grow 10 folds if that person is a merciless one, a bad one who doesn’t even care for how we feel. The anger and hate will grow even more and it’s even harder to get things over. Being cruel and hard doesn’t help. They only make things worst. I hope it will not happen, and I will not be hurt more especially being in this vulnerable state again at this very moment. Caring and being considerate helps so much more in fact.
For countless times I’ve said I gotta let go. For countless times I’ve tried, and it was so hard to do so. Once again, my emotions failed me. Once again, I was smashed to the wall. At last, I now realise that I have to be strong, and not to give in to emotions so easily. I cannot fail myself again. The sky may seemed to have fallen on me once again, but I must get out of this and find for another sky and another world. May I see the light again and a rainbow that will remind me this will not happen again.
I shall have a new life soon. I shall see things differently then. I will have more things to look forward to than to stay in the same state and mourning on the same tragedy. Everyone has to move on and find a better life, or else we’ll be trapped in depression and will never be able to come out of our own world. Why mourn of the past where we have better things to look forward to? God is there to give us hope, no matter how much we think He’ve failed us at the present moment.
Time to time I’ll be missing the days of happiness and sweetness. From time to time I’ll be hurt by how it ended…is it worth for me to still recall all these memories? Is it worth for me to ponder on them? Will they bring me anywhere? Well, at the looks of it, I don’t think so.
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Day 38 without Dan- It’s All in Words
They say a song would be so much more meaningful if it’s written with our hearts, through the real experience that our soul has gone through. All of what the composer has gone through and everything that’s hidden in the heart will be expressed out through the particular song; something that verbal words alone are not enough to express.
For me, this is a song that marks a significant moment in life.
I chose to name this song;
Unforgettable
It’s so hard to see you go
It’s so hard to see you move away, from here
I see the love we’ve always shared
Like a bird flown away
With all the memories, kept in my mind
Will I be seeing the light again, to leave all the past behind
Chorus
Forgive me for what I’ve done
Forgive this little child inside
I gave all I had to try to look through your eyes
Or is it better left unsaid
And to just let time define
You’re always be in my mind
Unforgettable
Now I’m left alone
I don’t seem to understand, I can’t seem to explain
I keep turning back
To try to see the wrongs and rights
Why didn’t I see the signs
Bridge
If I was given one more chance, I would try to turn back time again
If I would see you once again, I would say all this to make you stay
For me, this is a song that marks a significant moment in life.
I chose to name this song;
Unforgettable
It’s so hard to see you go
It’s so hard to see you move away, from here
I see the love we’ve always shared
Like a bird flown away
With all the memories, kept in my mind
Will I be seeing the light again, to leave all the past behind
Chorus
Forgive me for what I’ve done
Forgive this little child inside
I gave all I had to try to look through your eyes
Or is it better left unsaid
And to just let time define
You’re always be in my mind
Unforgettable
Now I’m left alone
I don’t seem to understand, I can’t seem to explain
I keep turning back
To try to see the wrongs and rights
Why didn’t I see the signs
Bridge
If I was given one more chance, I would try to turn back time again
If I would see you once again, I would say all this to make you stay
Day 36 without Dan- Vulnerable Again
Again…I tried very hard to get over it, to the point where I almost threw everything behind already. But why is it all coming back to me again?
I tried very hard to be strong. I tried very hard to put things behind. I was strong at one point of time. But since when did I become so vulnerable again? Seeing somebody you love doesn’t want you back is the utmost saddest thing at this very moment. Seeing him leave is so hard, and I’m so much in pain.
I don’t understand why is it so easy to do so. Why does it seem so easy for it to come to an end? I have not done this to anyone before, and I don’t think I will ever do this to anyone. If only he knows how much pain I am in right now. I cannot bare to let others go through times in despair like this for me. For it to end like this, I rather not let it start in the first place.
I have to admit I am in a very vulnerable state again. I can’t let myself be like this for long anymore. I’m wasting myself away like that everyday. I know there’s something I need to do. I must change the way I see for a relationship. I shouldn’t have the same attitude towards a relationship anymore. I can’t let them hurt me anymore. I’m now starting to understand the reason people can go beyond themselves to do irrational things and betray themselves for temporary relieve. But I know this is not what I could tolerate. I know I cannot do this to hurt myself. It is not right in the eyes of God.
I can only hang on to God and rest in His arms of comfort. I do not know why God wants to take another precious person in my life away from me, but I still want to believe that All things work together for the good to those who Love God. I am in the verge of breaking down, but I still want to grasp that little hope that I can still see with the last bit of strength I have right now.
Father, I know you are there. I know You will bring me out of the darkness. I’m waiting for You to come and take me out of despair. You’re the only One that I can trust and depend on, because You know what is going through inside me more than anyone else. Please give me a new hope in life, and may I fulfill Your purpose in me. I will honour You with the new job You provided me, and I will stay faithful to You.
I still remember the promised I’ve made to Dan. I will stay pure. I hope he will make that promise to me too, and ultimately, to God. May God be our witness, for we are both accountable to Him as God’s children.
I tried very hard to be strong. I tried very hard to put things behind. I was strong at one point of time. But since when did I become so vulnerable again? Seeing somebody you love doesn’t want you back is the utmost saddest thing at this very moment. Seeing him leave is so hard, and I’m so much in pain.
I don’t understand why is it so easy to do so. Why does it seem so easy for it to come to an end? I have not done this to anyone before, and I don’t think I will ever do this to anyone. If only he knows how much pain I am in right now. I cannot bare to let others go through times in despair like this for me. For it to end like this, I rather not let it start in the first place.
I have to admit I am in a very vulnerable state again. I can’t let myself be like this for long anymore. I’m wasting myself away like that everyday. I know there’s something I need to do. I must change the way I see for a relationship. I shouldn’t have the same attitude towards a relationship anymore. I can’t let them hurt me anymore. I’m now starting to understand the reason people can go beyond themselves to do irrational things and betray themselves for temporary relieve. But I know this is not what I could tolerate. I know I cannot do this to hurt myself. It is not right in the eyes of God.
I can only hang on to God and rest in His arms of comfort. I do not know why God wants to take another precious person in my life away from me, but I still want to believe that All things work together for the good to those who Love God. I am in the verge of breaking down, but I still want to grasp that little hope that I can still see with the last bit of strength I have right now.
Father, I know you are there. I know You will bring me out of the darkness. I’m waiting for You to come and take me out of despair. You’re the only One that I can trust and depend on, because You know what is going through inside me more than anyone else. Please give me a new hope in life, and may I fulfill Your purpose in me. I will honour You with the new job You provided me, and I will stay faithful to You.
I still remember the promised I’ve made to Dan. I will stay pure. I hope he will make that promise to me too, and ultimately, to God. May God be our witness, for we are both accountable to Him as God’s children.
Monday, May 5, 2008
Day 35 without Dan- Memories
Dan went back to SG yesterday. But this time I didn’t get to see him. I felt very awkward, being the fact that I wasn’t able to meet him when he’s back after not meeting him for so long, but I guess he needs time on his own. I hope he enjoyed his trip home so far..
It’s the first day of the week again. I’m supposed to be at work today but I had a very bad sore eye during the weekend, so Dad asked me to stay home and have some rest. It’s a good thing too coz I get to stay home and tidy up my room and prepare the luggage for the next big move. Gee..I think I’ve been moving a lot since November last year and I think I didn’t really have a good rest for quite some time already. Back in this big house where it’s suppose to be my home, strangely, I’m having a hard time trying to have some good night sleeps. Guess I’ve not settled down yet and it’s still hard for me to adapt to life back here after being away for so long.
Because of this, my health was affected and my body started to show some symptoms of unwellness. Most of all, it affected my moods and emotions. I began to feel tired everyday and I’m having the worst nose blocks and nostril problems now. Hmm..a good environment does plays a very important role for a person’s well-being. And most of all, I’m being very anxious about the employment pass approval. It has been 2 weeks now, and the med check report is still at the clinic. I wonder when will it be settled, or not I really don’t know how much longer I will have to wait…sigh.
But all in all, I’m really thankful that God has taken care of me and supported me through my family all along the way. Without Mom and Dad here, I guess this journey and transition period will be tougher for me.
Today while I was tidying my room and unpacking the stuffs from the boxes, I stumbled upon a few things Dan’s given to me. Boy oh boy, they reminded me of the past again. The memories started coming back and I see flashbacks of the happy days we had together and how he’d cared for me. As time goes by, I seem to have forgotten about the bad things that happened between us and the wrongs and the rights seemed not so important anymore. Well, most importantly now, I know that he is happier and we’re both not arguing anymore =).
What’s left now are just sweet memories of us. I guess time can heal wounds and make things better. As for Dan, I bet he had a good “recharge” back home during the long weekend, and it’s time for another working week now. I know he’ll be missing home, but I know he’ll be strong enough to go through all this coz I know our Father in heaven will always be with him. And those memories? They’ll always have a place in my heart for as long as it can be....
It’s the first day of the week again. I’m supposed to be at work today but I had a very bad sore eye during the weekend, so Dad asked me to stay home and have some rest. It’s a good thing too coz I get to stay home and tidy up my room and prepare the luggage for the next big move. Gee..I think I’ve been moving a lot since November last year and I think I didn’t really have a good rest for quite some time already. Back in this big house where it’s suppose to be my home, strangely, I’m having a hard time trying to have some good night sleeps. Guess I’ve not settled down yet and it’s still hard for me to adapt to life back here after being away for so long.
Because of this, my health was affected and my body started to show some symptoms of unwellness. Most of all, it affected my moods and emotions. I began to feel tired everyday and I’m having the worst nose blocks and nostril problems now. Hmm..a good environment does plays a very important role for a person’s well-being. And most of all, I’m being very anxious about the employment pass approval. It has been 2 weeks now, and the med check report is still at the clinic. I wonder when will it be settled, or not I really don’t know how much longer I will have to wait…sigh.
But all in all, I’m really thankful that God has taken care of me and supported me through my family all along the way. Without Mom and Dad here, I guess this journey and transition period will be tougher for me.
Today while I was tidying my room and unpacking the stuffs from the boxes, I stumbled upon a few things Dan’s given to me. Boy oh boy, they reminded me of the past again. The memories started coming back and I see flashbacks of the happy days we had together and how he’d cared for me. As time goes by, I seem to have forgotten about the bad things that happened between us and the wrongs and the rights seemed not so important anymore. Well, most importantly now, I know that he is happier and we’re both not arguing anymore =).
What’s left now are just sweet memories of us. I guess time can heal wounds and make things better. As for Dan, I bet he had a good “recharge” back home during the long weekend, and it’s time for another working week now. I know he’ll be missing home, but I know he’ll be strong enough to go through all this coz I know our Father in heaven will always be with him. And those memories? They’ll always have a place in my heart for as long as it can be....
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