Day 36 without Dan in Penang

I did. I did everything I could..Out of love. Sometimes I just ask myself, how could I manage to get myself into so much love? How did I fell in love so deeply that I could put myself into such position?

I've been asking myself in and out- were the things that I've done were so wrong that they actually got his heart out of it? Are my gestures, attitudes, character and behaviour are so wrong, that it actually took every guts in him for him to place his love again? For once in my life, that I see the whole picture and for once, I'm taking things real, seriously, and facing it with full determination and faith. I believe I could overcome this challenges if I am willingful enough to make a difference.

I am trying very hard. I'm doing the best I can to make him trust me again. I'm trying the best to change everywhere that is inappropriate, even the slightest excusable mistake also I will try my very best to change and we promised to make things better and play our part. But how come I can only feel that I'm the only one that is trying to make things work? Everything seems not right for him.

A lot of times I will be depressed and down. Sometimes I will feel frustrated at the things that are happening. It seems all efforts are taken little notice of. I can see things are at a turning point, and I just have to put in more effort. Whatever it is, I am not gonna give up. I will persevere to the end.

All things work together for the good for those who Love God.