Interesting n Different; a Breakthrough

I've always have this thought about life- to make it more interesting or just to follow what everyone does...what makes more sense actually..

I desire to be someone Different.

Someone who stands out from the others. Someone who makes a difference to the people around me. I want to paint my life with all the different interesting colours and make it more vibrant~

OK...that's enough for my self-centredness..it's not a very good example to portray, but it's just part of the Interesting-ness in life. It's just not only about ourselves.

I'm not saying it is wrong to be thinking for yourselves, but it is more balanced if you can include other lives into yours as well.

To bless than only to be blessed. To give to others what God has given to you. To spread happiness to people after God made you happy. Isn't that more gracious? And it doesn't mean we still cannot make our lives interesting.

In actual fact, each and every single person on earth has a certain level of selfishness - don't tell me you don't love yourself that you wouldn't pamper yourself to a good meal and watch a great movie over the weekends.

Learn to enjoy while you have the time~

Do random acts of kindness to share and give to your friends and family around; you wouldn't loose anything accept to store more treasures for yourself in heaven.

Oh, and do remember to think for them. Try to put yourself in their shoes, and see whether the way we act or treat them is what we like to be treated ourselves.

I like my job and passion. I also desire to bless others as God's blessed me so abundantly. I love and appreciate my family and friends more and more each day. I'm desiring for a Breakthrough.

-| Biker's Day Out |-

An off day!

It's always the day that I'm looking forward too after a flight..I usually liked hanging around overseas but recently (after having to suffer from bad indigestion and fever a few times onboard), I think I rather be at home then. It feels so much better being at HOME; I need some rest....

Fortunately, it's not another day rotting at home..at least not the whole day =).
I thought Josh didn't mean it when he told me about it- to get back a bike for himself ever since the last time he roamed the streets with his Hayabusa..And now I got the first hand experience of being on his Yamaha Fazer~




Josh was riding slow on our way to East Coast for dinner; yeah he told me he wouldn't wanna give me a scare but I thought he could do better =P.



N we went to the Marina Barrage..I didn't know they had interesting places like this in SG..guess I've gotta do more exploring ;) It's understandable though, you can't reach there unless you're driving or on bike, and on a Yamaha Fazer? It's cool-ness!

A biker's view on the road~


The experience on a bike accelerating to a speed of 170kmph is superb! Phew, I'm a rider baby! =D


It was one hell of a night~ I mean I've been on bikes before (let me see- a kapchai, a chopper) but this is awesome~

Thanks for the night Josh, it was wonderful =).

Take Me to Seoul-Frisco Baby!

I don't mind going back to San Francisco again! I mean, how can anyone deny the sophisticated aura and ambience of the city?

Being there is like being in dreamland..or at least, my dreamland; it's like being in the movies! Imagine, you're now at the streets where Arnold, Brad and Tom once had their scripts acted out! For the guys, it's might be the coolest thing, But for the girls, it's undeniably always the shopping that captures the heart of each and every woman that was there...haha! =D

C'mon, you gotta have those American food baby! As usual, it's always humongous in portion (it is for me!) But at least, it's reasonable in price for the portion ok.. Thanks Yusni for dinner, but "Boleh cakap Bahasa Melayu bukan slalu dapat untung tau?" =P


It's the Fisherman's Wharf! I remember watching this location in lotsa movies where seals lay all over the platforms basking under the sun..It didn't feel sunny although it was, I wonder how they managed to capture heat by basking in such a cold weather like that? God's creation is amazing!

What you cannot afford to miss here;
1) Clam Chowder!!!!!
2) Seafood Cocktail n Crabs!
3) The captivating distant scenery of the Alcatraz
4) The comfy bed of grass in a vast
field in a cozy weather like this (it's autumn by
the way)






(check out more of the pics in Facebook a'ite)


to be continued....

Getting Closer to You/ I amsterdam!

I can only not start with anything else but to thank My Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. He listened to me when I was crying foully, when I was down n depresed, n He heard the desires of my heart, and He healed me.

= I'm now a renewed person. He was the only eyes to see me going through all the agony and pain, and He knows better than anyone else. He picked me up when I fell. I didn't see His footsteps around, but I saw His shadow in front of me. =

I started getting closer to the people around me; the Godly people who really cared for me and make me feel belonged, like a family; Victor, Shu Xian, Casey- they are all great people God sent me, n I owe it to all of you in N31 =).

Job wise? Coping up even more, n every stations did not fail to mesmerize me leh! I don't mind going back there again and again coz there are like so many places to explore!

Now, this is Amsterdam~

I was on the Canal Cruise, n this is a scene that can only be caught by catching a boat;

Uniquely, they label themselves as the "I Amsterdam"s. This is one of the thousands of souvenir shops in the state at the Flower Market. I just liked the signboard..hehe.

this was at 1 of the canals along the street we were at. FYI, Amsterdam's below sea level, n that's one of the reasons for their unique infrastructure.



N This, is the terrific scene at the canal I've taken during the night; this is an awesome scenery captured on camera~ I tried to positioned myself in this scene too, but the camera doesn't work very properly; my face was blurred =( .

Thank you Lord for another long but safe flight =).

Adelaide- my 2nd time into Australia

My first time in Adelaide~

Believe this..we had;

1) o hours of sleep since evening the day before.

2) 0 hours of rest- literally "walking" to Adelaide.

3) 1 full day to tour around n cruise the streets

Reporting time was 10 am the next day. Touchdown time was 9am.

We went straight out to the nearest shopping street- Rundell St.

We wasted 40 mins loolking for the right direction, but fortunately was captivated by the beauty of the town along the way;

~Pictures worth a Thousand Words~

And this...is the beauty of Glenelg West~ I felt like not coming back again =)






























This angler guy was funny, he came into the picture without my knowledge! That's good anyway, it just adds some spice into the pic ;) .


And so, there you go..that was Adelaide; a very laid back, comfy place everyone wants to be to have a getaway for a while, after a long hectic working period to just take a deep breath and enjoy the beauty of nature and a suburb experience..
We caught the late tram back to the hotel at around 9pm..boy I was very stoned I nearly fell asleep on the way back. Thank goodness we had a fairly later reporting time the next day I managed to have 12 hours of deep sleep that I was so energized the next day I had no problem "walking" back to SG again..haha.

Thank God for another safe flight =) .

1st few Solos

~Batch 980 is history~

We're taking up our 1st step to independence in our career not as a batch anymore. Of course the bittersweet memories are memorable and remembered, but the next few moments of the new beginning is even more worth remembering..

1st Solo- Bangkok turn- Challenging

It was my 1st, yes my 1st! I wonder if they got my message across during the briefing...I said "It was my 1st TIME flying", not "1st MONTH flying" =S.

It was close to disastrous. My stuck up leading was breathing under my neck; she expect me to be 6 years flying and be as fast as her. OK, I was as humble as I could be with lotsa "sorry"s and "thank you"s. It was so bad until the PPS couldn't take it anymore until he had to pen down about her stuck up attitude.

Thank goodness the misjudgment was not left unseen ;) . Thanks Mr. K.

2nd solo- Beijing- Fun n Friendly

1st step on board, the situation was a lil' intense n I didn't know what to expect although we ran thru some intro during the briefing. I guess they were just being cautious and looking out for "attitudes" in a few new crew uncluding myself.

Later on thru the nite at about 35000 ft above, despite my drowsiness n stone-ness, they were very understanding and literally load me with information. And the challenge is to decipher all of their years of experience and put them into practice.

Touchdown- my 1st time in Beijing. The weather was cooling, but the city was clouded with haze. They told us it's very normal in Beijing. Goodness. We had lunch in a nearby restaurant- smoked duck, soup, varieties of taufu n some vege n mushroom dishes Beijing style. Our bellies were bloated n we still left half of the dishes on the table. Our bad, we wasted the food but is was crazily cheap! $40 for 5 of us. LOL.

We did a lil stocking up at Carrefour after a walk at Yashow. I got myself a nice winter jacket for a bargained low price. Feeling? Satisfied =). I experienced my 1st maddage session at the nearby center and it was not as good as I expected. Nvm, we had to try new things too.

Amy was great. She was my mentor and a real friend throughout the trip. Thanks so much for ur help. You remind me of my great fren n sis, Susan.

Signing off here. Check out the updates on my next entry. Take care ya'll.

Feeling Like Crap!

Seeing him moving on isn't easy. I can't bear to go through the cycle all over again, as if the first time wasn't tough enough to get by. I hate it. And now I've to go through all of this again. I know I was forcing myself to let things go and see it in a different way altogether, but deep down inside, it's not as easy.

I hate the fact that there's this someone comes along, or so to speak had been there all this while along the road, waiting for the opportunity to snatch away things for their own benefit and literally "rob" them away, before the the person involved ever realised it. I could never the comprehend the reason for all this sh*t I've to go through. It seemed rational at one side, but on the other, I wasn't able to comprehend. It's the reason my heart could never understand or learn how to accept although my head said it was rational. So much for my female intuition..It never failed me.

So much for understanding me. So much for doing the things that cares for my feelings. So much for all of that sh*t. So much for me being immature. So much for all that lame excuses. I couldn't seem to buy them. Somehow, I still look like a stupid kid who doesn't know how to control her feelings and just making a fool out of herself.

Stupid, naive and gullible lil' girl. She could just be swallowed whole by the hungry wolf and she would still thank him for his generosity to swallow her whole n not leaving the other half to suffer. A bigger lesson learned this time. Again my heart's shattered into pieces. Feeling very painful inside.

I hate this!

只能留下回忆，想见又不想见......

I wish the English language could be written in a simpler, sophisticated yet sincere way to express the way I am feeling, the way the Chinese language was designed to express their meanings in one single character of each ideogram..

昨晚我们又相见。。我又再伤心了，我觉得很可息因为我失去了一个心中里面最真贵的东西， 一个我失去了又永远都不再会回来到我身边的人。

I thought it was over. Yes it is, but somehow the words still hurt me. It still hurts. I wish I could express it all in Chinese, coz somehow I felt it is most appropriately described in it.

I've changed my perception towards a relationship already. I will not dare to take any relationship into something serious anymore. Anything can crop up in the process. You'll never know that the next moment we might end up losing each other and all the future plans for being happy together, the love for a better life together might be shattered into pieces for all we know.

I'm in tears again. It's been a while since my last...it's just so hard to get by it sometimes.

Oh God, help.

Another Day Out...

We had a great time last Friday, this time with more of the 980s.

It was a so-called last gathering we're gonna have for our batch, coz we're soon graduating and everybody's going solo, so we decided to at least come for the last time. Desiree was always as usual, ditching everyone at the last minute, and Serene almost didn't make it because of her unfortunate "encounter" ; apparently she kicked on something on her way out and got her toe cracked, haha. Luckily Raj was generous enough to pay for her cab and she finally showed up. At least she is still mobile...

Anyways, our first stop was at Edward's place- the Edward Lee Apartments. We were, by all means, surprised, shocked, awed, stunned and impressed. Man, this is an intelligent guy. A very intelligent one. I mean the way he portrays himself out there, the way he communicates with people, he doesn't look at all like a rich man's kid. He look's like an independent kid who did all he could to have a better life for himself n his family. And he did it, at the age of 29. We're all proud to know him~

For some reasons, many of our batchmates started to question about the both of us. Whether I was interested in him, or the other way round. Hmm..i must admit to a certain extent there's some attraction, but somehow I wouldn't allow myself to go further than that. Maybe because I feel inferior and I just wouldn't know how to deal with guys like this. Too well off, is a good thing for that person, but not so good for his life long partner. Does he actually take all this seriously? Or he would rather have more options n choices outside there? I don't know. One thing I know, I wasn't attracted to his wealth initially, because at first sight, I find this guy's attitude quite to my preference n liking. I didn't know about his wealth or whatsoever. It wasn't about his looks, his outer appearance, but rather this humble n intelligent character protrayed by him.

I will not dare to take any initiative, or do anything obvious, coz this will definitely affect the friendship. Seeing him with his girlfriend makes me feel bad to even have that thought and feeling. I can't be intercepting them n steal away their happiness...Oh well, I can just look and watch from beside...

Of course I took the opportunity to come up, close n personal with this handsome "guy" too ;)

We were at his house till about 12 am while waiting for the others to come. Man this guys were late! We were of coz being entertained and served by this wealthy, humble man with alot of drinks n some snacks through the night..while he hardly had much for his dinner (Maggi Mee). Thanks for all the hospitality he had to us =) . Ok, I didn't know what kinda drinks he gave to the guys, but they really had a lil' too much to drink that night. Aren't they suppose to control themselves and not touch that Absinth??? I wonder what they were thinking....

One of the guys were totally out that night..He was totally a goner...It was 1st experience looking at a real drunkard. He was completely out of his mind n started talking nuts n crapping the whole time. Super paiseh... =S Some of us just had to pretend we didn't know this guy la.. =P.

It wasn't really our concern anyway coz the other guys took care of the situation, and we were just there to observe. It was just a good nite out, having fun and we all went back home safely.. but the highlight was definitely the stunning apartments... ;) . Way to go, way to go~


~At the dining table~

~Eddie, Raj, Taufik n Me~

Losing My Passion....

I looked back into the past. I see myself living my dream and passion...And now I looked at friends who persisted from day one together with me. They're halfway to their dream. They've got their passion in place and their living it; living with Music.

This passion in us is something where money can't replace and a relationship that just couldn't rob away from, let alone other things in life. It is just that satisfaction that we've fulfilled in our lives with no regrets. Oh, how I hope people would understand what we're going through. It's not money that matters. It doesn't matter if we don't earn as much as others. It's just the journey and the achievement that was less enjoyed and experienced by most people. It's just something we enjoy doing for life, when others may not understand or feel the same way we do. Others may feel comfortable in a secured, mundane, monotonous and common life, but that's not for us.

I'm not a person who can be satisfied with that kind of life. I have an adventurous self that couldn't be fulfilled easily. I am someone that looks for new challenges everytime to constantly maintain the enthusiasm. I am not a person who could ever sit still. I am impatient.

As if losing a relationship is not enough- I'm now losing my passion. I'm losing a part of my life. My life becomes somewhat meaningless without the passion. I slowly become a nobody. I am slowly diluting into the life of a common. I'm losing that thing that portrays my uniqueness and to stand out from the others.

I always wanted to be different from the common; to be uniquely unique. Oh, when will I be able to do it again? Time is slowly catching up, and I do not have much time anymore. I am now making it a sideline. It will never be forgotten in my life. It will never be taken away by anything or anybody. It shall be with me forever and ever, even if the world fails on me.

Dear Lord, please reveal Your purpose in me. I believe You've given me this talentand gift for a purpose. Use it for Your glory. May I be a servant unto You, O' Lord. Please do not leave me. I will only follow You and You alone till the end of my life. I am waiting upon You Lord. It is time I do something for You, my life's Author, my Friend, my Saviour, my Lord, my dear Jesus Christ.

Let all praise be unto You, and my life be dedicated to You, Dear Lord. Amen.